What I really want and like...
The only thing I enjoy doing without getting tired for what I can deprive of sleep without even notice it, where I get alienated and get lost in it's realm; is creation. No matter what, how or where, as long as it starts as raw as I can handle. I can say I'm addicted to problem solving and creative work and I feel annoyed and almost angry when I get out of time or the events of my life distracts me from what I like to do. The complexity, size and difficulty of the "thing" I need to work. creation attracts me so strong that I can barely hold myself to not approach new problems or start learning something that's unrelated from the specialities I choose to learn and master.
I don't know when I lost the fear of the unknown and decided to try harder. I just wish I were more able, smarter and faster. Right now I feel I wish I was given more time, people and trust to attempt solving more problems. I feel glad that I have been given the chance of working where I have been working these five years, the support and trust, tolerance of me being so stubborn with the use of free software, best practices, and mathematical rigor, to the extreme cases that it generated delays in projects. Yet after this time we're gaining popularity, credibility and trust. I just hope I can keep helping and tackling the nice problems like the ones we have been solving and the ones we're still waiting to solve.
For now I'm just wishing I were able to get more time to work on a single problem, currently I have dropped the work on some problems I wish I could have worked more on them, yet: C'est la vie. Let's see If I can enroll myself on a PH.d and try myself there.
© 2008-2010 Carlos
A. Perilla
